Disney Channel star shares touching moment he came out as bisexual to co-stars
Disney Channel star Karan Brar has publicly come out as bisexual and opened up about the emotional moment he first came out to his co-stars in 2019.
The actor, who played Ravi in Disney Channelās Jessie and its spin-off series Bunkād and Chirag Gupta in the Diary of a Wimpy Kid films opened up about the difficulty he endured trying to bridge his public persona and his true self in a new essay for Teen Vogue.
Karan, who is just one of many former Disney stars to come out publicly as LGBTQ+ over the years, writes candidly about the first time he moved out of his parentsā house and moved in with his fellow Disney stars Cameron Boyce (Jessie) and Sophie Reynolds (Gamerās Guide to Pretty Much Everything) just after he turned 20.
The actor explains that, before moving in with his friends, he had been compartmentalising āpublic Karan and private Karanā until ācracks started to form.ā
Karan recalled how it all ācame to a headā after a night of drinking with his friends āwhile [he] was drunkenly hunched over a toilet bowl,ā and he decided to come out as bisexual for the first time to his Disney Channel co-stars.
āThe moment the words left my mouth, I regretted it. I could barely see straight, but I ended up trying to do some damage control anyway,ā he says.
Immediately, Karan says he began offering to move out but didnāt get far before his two best friends hugged him from behind.
āAgain, I told them I should move out. They told me I was being stupid. I told them Iād cover for them if people asked why we didnāt live together anymore. They said to shut the f**k up.ā
Ultimately, Boyce and Reynolds managed to get through to Karan that his bisexuality āchanged nothing for them.ā
The Disney Channel alum recalls how āshockedā his friends were – not that he was bisexual, but that he assumed that they would want ānothing to do with [him]ā once he came out.
āToday I can understand how absurd that was – Soph and Cam had been my best friends for years and loved me every step of the way. Why in the world would they stop then? I think I just convinced myself that this part of me would feel less like an invitation to know me better and more like a burden they had to endure,ā he wrote.
The following morning, in a sober state, Karan tried once more to āgive them one more opportunity to accept [his] offer to move outā, believing he had just āruinedā their collective childhood dream to one day move in together.
āTo no one’s surprise, Cameron interrupted me once again, while Sophie tried to hide her frustrations because I refused to listen to what they had to say,ā the now-24-year-old says.
āI finally gave up and accepted that they loved me as I am, as Iāve been, and as Iām going to be.
āThis was a crisp picture of what unconditional love looked like: my two best friends sitting across from me on a discount couch, waiting to hear me describe my type so they could take on their new roles as matchmakers. They werenāt going anywhere.ā
Sadly, later that year, Boyce died due to complications with epilepsy, which Karan says threw his āalready-fragile sense of self into a tailspin.ā
Dealing with internalised homophobia, suicidal ideation, depression, grief, and anxiety, Karan admitted himself to an inpatient treatment centre in 2020.
Today, the actor insists he is ādoing much betterā, after being officially diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and Major Depressive Disorder.
āIām no longer drowning in the grief of losing Cameron. Rather, Iām in acceptance of grief being an ever-changing experience I just have to see through,ā he says.
āEveryone around me can also see these changes, and I can feel their shoulders dropping in relief as we go further into our twenties.ā
Suicide is preventable. Readers in the UK who are affected by the issues raised in this story are encouraged to contact Samaritans on 116 123 (www.samaritans.org), or Mind on 0300 123 3393 (www.mind.org.uk). āReaders in the US are encouraged to contact the National Suicide Prevention Line on 1-800-273-8255.
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