Demi Lovato says ‘I’m not sober anymore’ in emotional confession
Demi Lovato has revealed that she’s no longer sober in a heartbreaking new song.
Demi, who came out last year, had abstained from drugs or alcohol for six years after starting when she was 17.
In her new track, “Sober,” the American pop sensation apologises to her parents, her fans and prospective lovers, among others.
The lyric video opens with images from Demi’s past, of her partying and drinking, before she sings: “Momma, I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore / And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor.
“To the ones who never left me / We’ve been down this road before / I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore,” she adds.
The 25-year-old star continues: “I’m sorry to my future love / For the man that left my bed / For making love the way I saved for you inside my head.
“And I’m sorry for the fans I lost / Who watched me fall again / I wanna be a role model / But I’m only human.”
She also appears to discuss withdrawal in the song, singing: “I got no excuses / For all of these goodbyes / Call me when it’s over / ‘Cause I’m dying inside.
“Wake me up when the shakes are gone / And the cold sweats disappear / Call me when it’s over / And myself has reappeared.”
Demi finishes with a final verse in which she sings: “I’m sorry that I’m here again / I promise I’ll get help / It wasn’t my intention / I’m sorry to myself.”
Earlier this week, Demi set her fandom on fire with a picture of her licking her backup dancer’s tongue.
Demi, who is a longtime LGBT advocate, revealed last year that she was open to dating women, saying: “That’s how I’ve always felt.”
In March, Demi explained more about her sexuality, saying: “I’m very fluid, and I think love is love. You can find it in any gender.
“I like the freedom of being able to flirt with whoever I want.”
The “Sorry Not Sorry” singer followed this up by kissing Kehlani – who came out as queer in April – on stage.
Demi also cuddled Kehlani, who features on lesbian superstar Hayley Kiyoko’s new album Expectations, and mounted her before proceeding to grind away on top of her.
She later said that “it was perfect. It was awesome.”
Before last year, Lovato had resisted attempts to label her sexual orientation.
Demi has also been reluctant to open up about the lyrics to her song Cool for the Summer, which many say has Sapphic undertones, and certainly contains bisexual lighting.
The song’s lyrics include: “Got a taste for the cherry / I just need to take a bite,” and “I’m a little curious, too / tell me if it’s wrong, if it’s right / I don’t care / I can keep a secret, can you?”
When Alan Carr asked whether the song was about same-sex relationships, Lovato said: “I’m not confirming, and I’m definitely not denying.”
Demi has long been an LGBT activist though, as seen when she chose Danica Roem, the first transgender person to be elected to the Virginia House of Representatives, to be her date to the American Music Awards.
The 25-year-old star said: “We connected because I heard her story – and when I heard [it] I was just completely inspired by it.”
The singer also helped gay couple Rayvon Owen and Shane Bitney to get engaged during one of her concerts in March.
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